A lover without a beloved

Uncomfortable in your own skin
Uneasy with the world around
Thinking you are your own sin
Thinking you are just a clown

Like a king without a kingdom
A lover without a beloved
To death you succumb
For you feel unloved

You think you live
Because you got no choice
You think you can't forgive
 Beacuse no one will hear your voice

Like words without meaning
A voice without an ear
You have got this feeling
That no one can really hear

What you feel for yourself
Is nothing but disdain
And to hear it for yourself
You repeat the same words again

Dysthymia

O Weltschmerz
Why sit by the window I ask
if you don't like the world you see outside
why cry your tears and weep
when no one hears you wail
You know that you need to know
what is and what will never be
Painted in all shades of blue
you hang down so low
hidden behind a paper mask
and painted smiles
Tired to the bones
tried to the deepest bones
Why roam around
somewhere you don't trust yourself
why hang around
when there is nothing to focus on
You got no words to hang on to
no hands to hold on to
there is no way you can let go
just sit around
move through the motions
with your blunted affects
and your harsh heart
For you are invisible to a reflected world
no ones looking for you
all they see is a face
and that is enough for them
all they need is a place
to push you and your leaden body into