All right

where have you been
where did you go
tell me the things you've seen
and the reason you left for

what did you do
when you weren't here
and me, alone without you
your voice I could still hear

sing me that song
you used to sing all night
for your voice this night, I long
sing to me, make it all right

Confines of time

She reminds me of someone I never knew
like a forgone dream I have lost
the times I held her were too few
so I wait till she comes around

Like a fleeting memory
at the back of my head
that's floating away slowly
seeping through my mind

She is leaving this place
a few steps at a time
taking away all the grace
leaving an echo behind

says she can't hide no more
losing herself all over again
She'll find her way back ashore
but she won't know herself

there's nothing much she can do
bound by the passage of time
just moving on and through
like every other face you see

can't take it any long
I can see it in her eyes
and hear it in her song
but I can't just let go

It was long ago yesterday
when everything was just right
but she is not here today
and everything is gone

I can't escape confines of time
entangled, bound and restrained
like how it happened last time
it's history repeating itself

Where do you get off?

Where do you get off
this bus needs to get moving on
you are down my throat
and eating away my words

are you lost
or are you lonely
we've got to go
leave behind slowly

you are burning fires
you can't put off
and shooting bullets
you can't stop

and we'll keep driving on and on
you'll make war, we'll make love
we will go where flowers bloom
while you sit in someone's room

we are lost
not so lonely
we'll keep moving on
leaving behind slowly

you are dragging us
back to before
where you want to stay
but can't let us go

but we'll keep moving on and on
you'll make war, we'll make love
we will go where flowers bloom
while you sit in someone's room

where do you get off
with your constant dissonance
you are down my throat
eating away at my words

To buy your pain

when you put me on paper
and dissect me with your scalpel
what do you think you would find
it did not make any sense at all

so you stood me in front of a mirror
and put me under the microscope
you searched every pore on my skin
it did not make any sense at all

and you shine a light in my eye
you try to sell me into the night
just like your miscellaneous soul
you're lost in your own stale words

no, I don't want to buy your pain
it's sold on every street corner
where no one is really at home
high on rhetoric, they all sit alone

take a long walk to somewhere
and take my shoes if you must
smash all your rose tinted windows
that you look at everything through

you try so hard to understand
to make sense of everything I am
you try to put me into words absurd
that you don't fully understand at all

why don't you take a look inside
you're the only thing you should really know
there is nothing else here to realize
if you are really telling the whole truth

no, I don't want to buy your misery
it's found on every street corner
where no one is really at home
high on rhetoric, they all sit alone


and you dissect your own dissonance
and you dissent your own conscience
and you don't know what you believe in
and you don't believe in what you know

Before I go to sleep

Please let me tell you one more time

assure me that you are still mine

but if you are ready to go now

before you leave for the night

won't you tell me how

Please tell me one more time

tell me we are going to be fine

You have given a look and a sigh

but if you leave tonight

won't you tell me why

Before I go to sleep tonight

tell you'll be here in the morning light

But if going is what you planned

know that I will try to understand

 Its going to be a cold night tonight

going to need a warm place to sleep right

you have taken everything I have

and when morning comes

yours company I will crave

Before I go to sleep tonight

tell you'll be here in the morning light

tell me I'll be fine here on my own

but you know I'd rather not be alone

Before I go to sleep tonight

tell you'll be here in the morning light

But if going is what you planned

know that I will try to understand

Incomplete

Taken away by a madman
the sunny days are gone
don't you look back
for we are all alone
at a lonely bus stop
at the end of nowhere
and the stars, they are burning
and will keep doing so
We grew up too fast
everything has gone away
we don't remember
how we really felt
when the days were longer
and the nights were plenty
but now, life is a fool's errand
and yet, surely, wars end
But we are not weak
just incomplete

The lonely men

Have you seen the lonely men
in the crowded rooms
with their heads held high
and eyes full of gloom

where do they belong to
where did they come from
what stories do they recall
what songs do they hum


He had walked among them
in those lonely streets
He had seen them there
into the back they retreats

why do they hide their faces
in such an open place
how to they keep falling
so deep from the grace


He had heard their woes
in those horrible cries
and their hefty laughs
where their pain hides

when will they learn to love
and put their hearts alight
why do they paint the faces
with false colors so bright

Death

there is a dark shadow creeping on the floor

there is a loud, quick knock on the door

now you know you are not where you were before

you were here long ago, but you don't know what for

and you try so hard to understand

you look for someone to lend you a hand

but everyone you know is in a far away land

you realize this isn't how you had your life planned

there is a loud thud upon the wall

your skin is now starting to crawl

the room is starting to get small

you ready yourself for what is about to befall

a thunderstorm is roaring outside

you know that you are trapped inside

you know that there is no place to hide

you kneel down and swallow your pride

whoever it is, is waiting outside for you

you have no one to tell you what to do

you look around, wanting to know if all this is true

looking for anything, a cue, a hint, a clue

what do you do, when Death comes knocking

when you know there is no place It won't come looking

It will take you, no matter the state you are in

your body torn apart, your soul plucked in

the bell tolls, the prayer calls, the gong is pound

for you, they will dug a grave, to lower you into the ground

they will stand by your tomb, their false grief abound

they will stay till bells sound, then leave you to rot in the ground

the door squeaks, silence falls, and walks in the Reaper

The Angel, Azrael, Anubis, Yama, death's own harbinger

Thanatos, Kisin, by any name, but your chauffeur

to take you to the beyond, to what ever comes after

It looks into your eyes, It smiles a wrecked smile

Its eyes deep and dead, Its lips ever so vile

It stands there looking at you, does nothing for a while

then takes you a thousand miles hauling through the aisle

you try to wake yourself from this nightmare

for all this is too much for you to bear

you think you're going crazy, leaving your sanity bare

leaving yourself, going away, you don't know where

there is a red dark alley along the highway

the sky is gone, and in its place all gray

the seas are boiling and this world decay

and you have your whole life to pay

and you are trying so hard to understand

you hang by a thread, your life at the strand

you fall into a pain you can hardly withstand

your voice is strained, your life's been panned

by a fire in the woods, you bled

you lay there, where you were led

it was your last place, a death bed

and in a matter of minutes you were dead

Love

I emblazon myself with the colors of the universe
I am getting high in a world of lows
For I am here now,
Neither do I dwell in the past
Nor do I contemplate on the future
It doesn't matter where I come from
Or where the road I am on takes me
Regrets and Hopes, mere words with little meaning
For Love is an universal truth

I float across a worldly bliss
I am walking in an otherworldly rhythm
For I am listening to the noise
But its not the sounds it makes
Or the silence it breaks
It's a rhapsody like no other
An opera of transcendental voices
Notes and chords, and broken melody
It is a song of Love, the imperfect and bold

I sit in a broken down home
I am sitting at a loss of words
For I have said what I can
But I am not done with life
I have sang its verse
And I have read it prose
I reject all Hate the world projects
All Pride, Greed, Lust and Envy
And now I am become Love

Pawn

You don't know who I am; what my name is. Where I come from, where I'm going. What's going in my mind. You don't know what makes me smile. and why should you?

You don't care for my dreams. For my hopes and desires. You don't care about the stories I have to tell or the songs I want to sing.

I don't know why you claim you know me. Why you say you speak for me. Why you want me to believe that you stand with me. I don't know why you would delude yourself into such miserable beliefs.

I don't care what you think I dream of. What you think I should have and do. I don't care what you think my life should be.

I don't know why I should be your instrument. I refuse to be a pawn.

Double edged blade

Why have you forsaken me
with this double edged blade
do you think you could set me free
while you burn yourself with hate

Do you really think that your blood smell of peace
and your fires really burn with flames of hope
but know some won't forgive 'till you cease
for they have had enough to cope

we are of brutes, of tyrants, of ignorant fools
who will they follow to the end of the road
be willing, unknowing, to be used as tools
unbeknownst trampling the seeds they sowed

why have you forsaken me
on the crossroads of cruel fate
do you think I could not see
that you would just fade

Do you think your truths comfort me
while I know truths are made up of lies
or your loud songs of what is to be
can silence a real man's cries

we are with threats, with terror, with conniving madmen
who will they lead with all their false vows
be willing, knowingly, to lead to the glen
and all their emotions treacherously arouse

Listen

Listen!
Listen. Stop talking.
Stop talking, stop thinking and listen.
There is something going on. There has been something going on.

Listen.
Listen to the sounds that is being made. To the songs that is being sung. There is something going on.
Listen to the voices. To the cries and the weeps. The yells and the shouts. Listen to the laughter.

Silence. Listen to the silence. Listen to everything.

For we have been talking long enough. We have been walking long enough. Why haven't we realized that there is something to be heard? Something worthy of being heard?

We would have heard.

Listen.
Listen to the nature. The sounds it makes, the silence it breaks.
Listen to yourself. The words you say. The song you sing.
Listen to the story being told. By us; everyone. By everything.

Listen even if you think there is nothing to be heard.

Listen!

Edge

  I stand at the edge of Heaven. Staring upon endless emptiness. Behind me, vast pastures of green. High mountains and endless rivers flowing. Behind me a forest of huge trees and wondrous animals. Behind me a desert of sandy gold, and an oasis full of wonders.

  Behind me castles and palaces. Vast and magnificent.

  Behind me, the whole of Heaven.

  I stare into the vast empty space before me.

A lover without a beloved

Uncomfortable in your own skin
Uneasy with the world around
Thinking you are your own sin
Thinking you are just a clown

Like a king without a kingdom
A lover without a beloved
To death you succumb
For you feel unloved

You think you live
Because you got no choice
You think you can't forgive
 Beacuse no one will hear your voice

Like words without meaning
A voice without an ear
You have got this feeling
That no one can really hear

What you feel for yourself
Is nothing but disdain
And to hear it for yourself
You repeat the same words again

Dysthymia

O Weltschmerz
Why sit by the window I ask
if you don't like the world you see outside
why cry your tears and weep
when no one hears you wail
You know that you need to know
what is and what will never be
Painted in all shades of blue
you hang down so low
hidden behind a paper mask
and painted smiles
Tired to the bones
tried to the deepest bones
Why roam around
somewhere you don't trust yourself
why hang around
when there is nothing to focus on
You got no words to hang on to
no hands to hold on to
there is no way you can let go
just sit around
move through the motions
with your blunted affects
and your harsh heart
For you are invisible to a reflected world
no ones looking for you
all they see is a face
and that is enough for them
all they need is a place
to push you and your leaden body into